FEBRUARY
For a short time, I'm part of the ‘Stratus Faction’ singing group, formed by Murray Cameron, Merry Jo, Brock Smith, and Keith Lawson.
Although I found this promotional picture on the internet of me (centre. blue shirt) rehearsing/singing with this group, I honestly don’t remember anything about my time with them.
I continue to photograph women on Calgary’s streets.
Mary Ann and I attempt to form ‘The Silver Virgin’, an all-girl concert orchestra and chorus, but not enough women audition. One girl who does audition is Enid, whom I will meet again two years later.
MARCH
Mary Ann and I record a cassette tape with several of my songs: Voices from the Sky, Touch my Body, Ilili, City of Sleep, Destination Luna, Envoie Ton Amour, and Chérie.
Thanks to Mary Ann, who made a copy, I still have this cassette which she sent to me many years later. Unfortunately, there have been countless other times when I have sung at various places, but no known recordings, either photographic, audio, or video of me are available.
APRIL
I go to see the movie, The Christine Jorgensen Story, and my gender identity dilemma resurfaces yet again.
I was quietly crying during this movie because I identified so much with Christine and her childhood background. I wanted so much to do something about my own predicament, but I didn’t know anyone or have the resources necessary at the time.
I write and compose ChildBirth, a 'celestial opera of the future'. Mary Ann and I attempt to stage it with singers, dancers, and orchestra, but not enough talent auditions for it.
JUNE
Dad, mum, and I attend my sister’s graduation from the Berean Bible College.
SUMMER
I move back with my parents once again.
Residence:
6 Street NE
Calgary, Alberta, Canada
I continue the disheartening challenge of marketing my songs, still with no success, even though I receive still further encouragement:
■ “Quite frankly the lyrics and presentation are of such graphic nature that someone will probably record you...”
—James Weber, A&R
Elektra Records
■ “...while you show some promise and good ideas...neither of the tunes are what we're looking for at the moment...”
— Tommy Banks
Century II Productions
SUMMER
I meet Beverly White, who lets me take photos of her. Beverly also writes lyrics for Another Stormy Day and Wall-to-Wall Grass for which I compose the music.
Dad somehow learns I am staying at the homes of various friends. So, he tracks me down and gives me money to help me buy food and other essentials.
At one of the apartments, I notice a pile of unwashed dishes in the sink [which have obviously been there for some time] and have silverfish crawling all over them. I don’t stay there.
FALL
After she hears me singing at a friend’s house one day, a woman named Rebecca asks if I would like to join her and a male friend for a threesome. Apparently, it’s something she’s always wanted to do, but never got the chance.
I tell her I would be more than happy to try it.
A trio might work for my songs, too, I think with excitement because I always hear other harmonies to my songs in my head.
I just hope these two can sing decently since I haven’t yet heard them.
I meet her friend, Alan, and we drive to the Elbow River Inn.
They enter by the main lobby doors and, once booked in, they open a back door so that I can enter.
I follow them to one of the rooms as I frown with bewilderment.
We go in.
Then I blink as the two of them begin to remove their clothes.
Apparently, their so-called ‘threesome’ is not the musical trio I had assumed...
Once on the bed, Rebecca and Alan start making love as I watch.
I take my clothes off and slowly lie down beside them. Rebecca looks at me. “Are you all right?”
I swallow the lump in my throat, and croak back, “I—uh—haven’t done this before.”
Her face screws up with bafflement.
“Just caress me everywhere, then,” she replies, “and squeeze my breasts.”
Eventually, it turns out to be a very unremarkable experience since, although I’ve fantasized about it, I virtually don’t know what to do in a situation like this.
As a result, I don’t have any kind of sex, my virginity remains intact, and Rebecca doesn’t really get to enjoy the type of threesome she wanted.
We don’t get together again after that.
25 DECEMBER
Monday
I spend Christmas day with another lady friend, Kathy Hutchinson.
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